I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour
But heaven knows I'm miserable now
But heaven knows I'm miserable now
I was looking for a job, and then I found a job
And heaven knows I'm miserable now
In my life
Why do I give valuable time
To people who don't care if I live or die ?
Two lovers entwined pass me by
And heaven knows I'm miserable now
I was looking for a job, and then I found a job
And heaven knows I'm miserable now
In my life
Oh, why do I give valuable time
To people who don't care if I live or die ?
What she asked of me at the end of the day
Caligula would have blushed
"You've been in the house too long" she said
And I (naturally) fled
In my life
Why do I smile
At people who I'd much rather kick in the eye ?
I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour
But heaven knows I'm miserable now
"You've been in the house too long" she said
And I (naturally) fled
In my life
Why do I give valuable time
And heaven knows I'm miserable now
In my life
Why do I give valuable time
To people who don't care if I live or die ?
Two lovers entwined pass me by
And heaven knows I'm miserable now
I was looking for a job, and then I found a job
And heaven knows I'm miserable now
In my life
Oh, why do I give valuable time
To people who don't care if I live or die ?
What she asked of me at the end of the day
Caligula would have blushed
"You've been in the house too long" she said
And I (naturally) fled
In my life
Why do I smile
At people who I'd much rather kick in the eye ?
I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour
But heaven knows I'm miserable now
"You've been in the house too long" she said
And I (naturally) fled
In my life
Why do I give valuable time
Sometimes we live for the moment of happiness
AntwortenLöschensometimes...
AntwortenLöschenif not that then it is very missed...
AntwortenLöschenYes, I know it is very pessimistic but I can't find a solution or a way.....
AntwortenLöschenbut that's what you're doing now is great, ride in places that others dream, you practice a sport that you love, and you ride a bicycle at night;) ... but I did not ask what you may be missing...:(
AntwortenLöschenI missing: heartiness, pleasure, loyal friendship, face-to-face contact, her scent.... and sport? is only for all my dark thoughts :(
AntwortenLöschenI think that you are in heart of many people :)
AntwortenLöschenbut I want just this one :(
AntwortenLöschenNow hundreds of beautiful women think that just talking about it... "just this one" ;)
AntwortenLöschenyou think so? good :D
AntwortenLöschen;) I will say more, in this hundred for sure is that the only one :)
AntwortenLöschenI hope and thanks for the good thoughts :)
AntwortenLöschenRemember that you can always count on someone :):*
AntwortenLöschenOk, who areyou anonimus? :-D
AntwortenLöschenI'm heartiness, pleasure....:)
AntwortenLöschen...but you are not looking for heartiness, you are looking for something and someone else. Good luck
AntwortenLöschenhm, I do not know what I'm looking for?
AntwortenLöschenso you write ..... you know me?
AntwortenLöschennaturally also looking for warmth and heartiness,
somehow I just don't believe it.
and please don´t run away!
AntwortenLöschenwrite something sometimes :D
so there is nobody....:(
I lost a lot, now I´ve nothing and I’ve found nothing new, because I'm not always looking
AntwortenLöschenTo strive, to seek, to find and not to yield -
AntwortenLöschenThis is my new way but I have time :)
not disappear, I am:) I will visit you because you are special person. And you write about things that affect many seekers;) and I like it.
AntwortenLöschenjust sad to me like you're sad ...
AntwortenLöschenI hope that your search will be rewarded :)
AntwortenLöschenTkanx for motivaton :D
AntwortenLöschenyou deserve it:) I am convinced that your "Californication" has a happy end;)
AntwortenLöschenThis is my favorite series :) almost like my life:D
AntwortenLöschenhappy end? we'll see
I know it's your favorite series ;)
AntwortenLöschenso you know me?
AntwortenLöschen:)
AntwortenLöschendid you hide your ip address? :))))
AntwortenLöschenI can find out so much about you ! oc, if I want :D
now you run away? :)
AntwortenLöschenyou're right, you can check everything. I do not run away from you. I do not want to arouse anxiety. Just nice to see you and write to you.
AntwortenLöschenThis ist very interesting, you can see me? hmmmm
AntwortenLöschennow only on foto...
AntwortenLöschenokay, but do you know about the similarity with „Hank“ Moody and me :)
AntwortenLöschennaturally not all! for example - girls :)))
AntwortenLöschenwhy do I still have strong feelings for my ex? maybe this old-fashioned but I can'n change :D
but SHE changed my life! unfortunately also negatively
AntwortenLöschenok :) maybe you are old-fashioned :) but you are real. How you live with somebody so much time is with difficulty nothing not to feel and not to remember that is these good and bad things.
AntwortenLöschenearlier you wrote that.."I missing: heartiness, pleasure, loyal friendship, face-to-face contact, her scent".. did you mean ex??
AntwortenLöschenI like the example of the difference of similarity to Hank: girls :D
AntwortenLöschenYup, ex
AntwortenLöschenyhm:(
AntwortenLöschendisappointed, contemplative? or only surprised?
AntwortenLöschennot. I am not surprised after all I know the script ;)
AntwortenLöschenlove is pain and I'll do it again
AntwortenLöschenlife - the shit that happens while you wait for moments that never come
AntwortenLöschenyou are saying as if many cases already hurt you and what's more not by one person
AntwortenLöschenprobably you will become my champion ;) you brought very interesting practical conventional wisdoms from Nepal :)
AntwortenLöschenNaturally, I see many things differently and line of thinking has changed. But I'm intoxicated by memories and feelings to one person, so I'm not a good teacher for "conventional wisdoms" :)
AntwortenLöschendo you know the way how to forget .. ?? to stop thinking?? to stop missing??
AntwortenLöschenNo, I have not found! Otherwise .....why write about these feelings, right?
AntwortenLöschenTrust me, there are times that I get so down, depressed, and hate life and everything in it. But I have to focus on the positive.
I go on adventures, trips, meditate, write, think, feel, read, explore, entertain my desires, work on the things that need to be worked on, and just try and take things as they come. However, I did not know that my feelings are so strong, alive, colorful...it's a pity to destroy :(
Through a lot of soul searching and growing both out of the pain others have caused, but also through the warmth and love of friends, even strangers.
I know that resenting the people that have hurt me will get me no where, and I know that only though love and positive vibes will I be able to fully embrace all that is life.
Honestly, acid made me see so many of these things.
I think that you're on the good side of power, and those who have hurt you and love does not have an easy life because I remember because I can not stop loving each day. I asked a stupid question but you answered me wisely. sometimes teaches more than the loss of profit. You are at the top but you have to climb to the summit and did not give up. And courage belongs to those who want to live in spite of adversity.
AntwortenLöschenoooh!Thx you for your praise!
AntwortenLöschenI need only very little contact with her - just smile, what's up etc. Soooo, we are on opposite sides of the rainbow :(
If this is the same rainbow:) this is something that connects you :)
AntwortenLöschensmile and contact with his a beautiful daughter:)
I'm going back to fight. Good luck
" a beautiful daughter:)" - is a metaphor? :)
AntwortenLöschen"I'm going back to fight" - what? job or live? :)
Why metaphor? You think otherwise? it's really pretty girl.
AntwortenLöschenI'm fighting in the life and work...
you know my family?
AntwortenLöschenI know, too many simply said but I know that you have a daughter.
AntwortenLöschenGood waves in France :) is not broken boards? :);)
or some parts of the body) because on TV they say that the beach is a lot of broken hearts;)
AntwortenLöschenoooh, it's too much!
AntwortenLöschenWhat language do you use on a daily basis? ;)
do not laugh at me;D I practice English with you;) is so bad?:/ impossible to understand something?
AntwortenLöschenno, it's ok, I understood everything :)also that English is not your native language. Someone once tried to teach me also....not succeeded, like swimming.
AntwortenLöschenif swim so well as you speak English, it is not worried about you ;)because I certainly did not drown :)....
AntwortenLöschenand if you respond that you do not understand my English now I'd be "miserable":(
I understand everything, don't worry! :)
AntwortenLöschenI had a chance to learn how to swim technically but our patience was exhausted (like relationship, later!) - errors in communication (?)!
Who taught you to swim? :) And who first lost his patience? ;) You or the teacher? ;)
AntwortenLöschensomeone who is away....
AntwortenLöschenperhaps both?
I feel that this time not about an ex, but I think that the teacher is proud of you :) because you keep on the surface and using the science of pleasure while surfing ;)
AntwortenLöschenI can not surf ;/ and the sea is far away from me:( but I'm going a little jog today because I miss the endorphins :)
AntwortenLöschenIt is "Ex" :’(
AntwortenLöschenNow they make just yoga or nothing...like looks
AntwortenLöschenIf this is all true, I'm surprised with not stopped her forever and I'm not talking about memory and heart, but about life.
AntwortenLöschenI was in love twice but I came across people who could love a few others at the same time and he wanted to be the only one. It's sad because I too would like to be the only one. Understood that something else is my destiny, and now I'm leaving for recharge. Best regards :)
This is the truth like this what you write.....also loved the two :)
AntwortenLöschenSorry if I interrupt a discussion :) You say it’s possibly to love two persons. They don’t know about each other probably ;) If you say that you lack sth in the first one I think. You fall in love with the second. It’s very excating because it’s new. This is enchanting or blindness :) not the love. If you love truly you choose the only one.
AntwortenLöschen,,,If you love truly you choose the only one.,,,,,
AntwortenLöschenyou're right here! I love only one ....all the time and f*** I saw her briefly today :(
Hmm… I know this pain... It will be painfull for a long time. Especially if you’ll think about her over and over. I feel sorry for you because I disposed of this. If you have no chance to be with her - try to forget. If you have even the slightest one – fight! Judge it yourself. You are the fighter...I think :) Take sth for sleepless ;)
AntwortenLöschenI fight every day but I fight with myself.
AntwortenLöschenWords,thoughts,acts....warlike operations! :)))
AntwortenLöschenit was already - fire and tears. I'm still looking for something small, for some signal :(
I'd give it all for her. Letting go of me. Reaching as I fall. I know it's already over now.
Time to get up! It's a great pity.
I must struggle on an dig my way out.
AntwortenLöschenYou're in a better mood, I suppose :) A little better? Big Lebowski is right :)
AntwortenLöschenfrom time to time, yeas Dude Lebowski :)
AntwortenLöschenO, my mistake :p ..."The Dude". Big was old and fat and not so cool :) I watched it a long, long time ago
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